Passing in public

23 Jun

A lot is made of the ability to ‘pass’ in public. Today, I went one step further than just passing. I hadn’t actually planned to go out today, but I got up and dressed anyway. It’s important to get dressed every day when you work from home, or working becomes really hard to do. Dressing gets you in the correct mind set. Continue reading

Last night’s memorial service

22 Jun

The service was well attended, and everything seemed to be as it should be. Several of her friends spoke lovingly of her, the music was well received, and the service ended in one big circle of hugs. Many tears were shed, but that too is as it should be.

I haven’t written much …

20 Jun

I had such big plans for this blog. Then life, or should I say death, got in the way. Almost two weeks ago, I lost the one true love of my life. She had been fighting a long term illness, and finally could fight no more. Continue reading

3 Questions

18 Jun

A wise friend warned me that I would face 3 questions in the next months and years. Continue reading

Female Genital Mutilation at Cornell University

18 Jun

Female Genital Mutilation at Cornell University | Slog | The Stranger, Seattles Only Newspaper.
There is so much disturbing about this story. A doctor at Cornell University is routinely preforming surgical procedures on very young girls to reduce the size of the clitoris. I have always had reservations about the ancient, and questionably ‘necessary’, practice of circumcision in males. But female clitoral shortening? My Gods, how can anyone believe this is appropriate? Why is it done? Well, apparently too large a clitoris will lead to ‘abnormal sexual development’. Continue reading

Barbara Allen (Underwood) Shaw

14 Jun

Barbara Allen (Underwood) Shaw – Obituary

Barbara Allen (Underwood) Shaw, 48, of Houston Texas, died June 8, 2010.

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I’m still here, Anam Cara

12 Jun

Funeral plans are pending. As it happens, many of her friends are attending a wedding this weekend, and I just couldn’t interfere with that. Continue reading

Barbara crossed the veil

8 Jun

And I am alone for the first time in my adult life.

Intubation

8 Jun

As I write this, Barbara is being intubated. She simply isn’t able to breathe well enough on her own. Her CO2 levels are too high, and oxygen levels too low.

This is when it starts to make me scared. I’ve been through this with her enough to know that this is a bad sign. There is no point in pretending otherwise.

Life in the ICU

7 Jun

Barbara’s in the ICU. Restraints haven’t been necessary, as she is not sufficiently aware of her surroundings to be a problem. I guess I should thank the gods for the small favors. She has had no periods of coherence since late Saturday afternoon. I am in the ICU waiting room. This hospital (LTAC) doesn’t permit sleeping with ICU patients.

I’ve been down this road before. Last time it was 10 days. Who knows this time. Tomorrow, I will see what I can do about rounding up a cot. Tonight, it looks like it’ll be waiting room chairs.