Damn, I am getting emotional and over-reacting. My reactions to the events of yesterday truly were out of proportion. I know why. @greytfriend is right. I do “hurt more than most” and in the process, I hurt others. I’m working on getting that under control. It won’t happen overnight, but I will do it.
In the meantime, Kris and Rebeccah are giving me another chance. I love them, and I appreciate their presence here more than they can possibly know. Thank you guys!
An Aging Trans Woman 
You’re welcome. And you’re right that Cathy’s right. But you never need fear that we won’t love/forgive/accept you. We may not always be getting along, but you know my very short list of unforgivable sins, and anything other than those won’t ever lead me to abandon you.
Cathy, thank you for saying what I couldn’t find the words to say. Lately, I suck at communication, words seem to be vanishing from my life in so many odd ways.
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Thank you love. You guys are my rock right now. I’m so sorry for making things so difficult lately. I will be better.
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I can’t say how glad I am that my words helped a little bit. Sometime just getting through the next moment is all we can hope for. I’m grateful if I was able to help.
In a weird way, you guys helped me too. Because of my illness, I feel so isolated much of the time. I feel like I can’t do the things I used to do to help out in the world, to help friends and family, to work with my nonprofits, etc. But yesterday I was able to be there for you guys, in a way that would not have happened before my illness. I call it silver linings. I learned about the idea when my mom had cancer, that sometimes some small good things can come out of even the most awful circumstances. So you guys are one of my silver linings, thank you in return.
I’ll continue to send good wishes and energy your way. Hang in there, you guys!!!
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I know that. I may not always be as patient as we would both like, but I will certainly do my best. I know as time goes by you will get better. Just as I know she lived long enough to see her Heir born.
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I’m glad you’re doing better. Been wondering how you were doing and I’ve been so busy trying to keep my head above water that I’m missing most people’s social networking posts. Happy to see you have good support and understanding people with you.
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Thanks Janice. Yeah, these are some really good people. They mean the world to me.
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