Yeah, I’m a little slow reporting back. So sue me. No, on second thought, don’t. I have high-powered attorneys. Seriously, though, I’ve been a little too busy to update. Life happened. Nothing I care to talk about. Suffice it to say I made a fool of myself, and got hurt in the process. No, it’s not anyone you have ever heard me speak of. Continue reading
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Monday, anti-depressants, and support groups
18 OctMidday Monday I go see the doctor who originally put me on Cymbalta. She’s the neurologist who is treating me for epilepsy and fibromyalgia. Continue reading
More Republican hypocrisy
10 Oct… Although Bill Flores, a retired Bryan energy executive, has said all creditors were fully repaid with interest, court records show otherwise. The 1992 bankruptcy allowed Marine Rig 200 Inc. to repay just $3 million of $10.5 million owed to the U.S. Maritime Administration, which held the mortgage on a drilling rig the company owned. …
This from a man who “insists that private companies shouldn’t rely on the government for subsidies or financing.”
Today Is the Ultimate Answer to the Ultimate Question of Life, The Universe, and Everything
10 OctToday Is the Ultimate Answer to the Ultimate Question of Life, The Universe, and Everything.
Today is October 10, 2010. 10/10/10. In binary, that’s 42. And 42 is The Answer to the Ultimate Question of Life, the Universe and Everything. Or at least, that’s what Douglas Adams says. …
Four months ago
7 OctIn a few hours, it will be four months since Barbara died from complications of lupus. In that time, I have found a way to continue day-to-day. Continue reading
I think I like my bank
6 OctRemember the problem with the duplicate lease payment? I just got a response to my inquiry with my bank (Chase) and it seems that they will refund all overdraft fees caused by that unauthorized transaction as soon as the payment processing company’s refund posts.
That’s a policy I can support. Sure, they will wait until the reversal comes through. That only makes sense. After all, I could be blowing smoke just to try get overdraft fees removed. But since I am not blowing smoke, the bank is going to make me whole on this mess. I like that.
Decision time fast approaching
5 OctI’ve lived these past few months on auto-pilot, and that simply doesn’t lend itself to the effort and energy required to “be” Janet on the outside. I’m not happy, and I don’t really feel like I will ever be happy again. In a recent conversation with someone who knew me before the loss of B, I finally said out loud what has run around in my subconscious for months now. I told her “Janet is dead. She’s buried with B.”
I think it may be time to bury Janet. Without B, I simply don’t have the courage or the strength to be Janet. I haven’t shaved anything in weeks. I don’t leave the house alone by choice at all. I go pick up paychecks twice a month, but only because my employer doesn’t offer direct deposit. I occasionally leave with the wonderful people who came to be with me and help me get through this.
Truth be told though, I am losing my relationship with them. I know the fault is mine. Like Jimmy says in “Margaritaville“
Yes and some people claim that there’s a woman to blame
But I know it’s my own damn fault
I may not be drinking margaritas, but I am wasting my life away. And in the process, I am alienating everyone I care about.
So it’s time for me to seriously consider whether I can even sustain one life, much less try to live two. Goodbye for now. Until I reach a decision, you won’t be hearing from Janet any more.
Like I didn’t have enough to worry about
5 OctThe processing company my landlord uses to take debit card payments double charged me for this month’s rent. I contacted them, and they are going to refund the duplicate charge … Continue reading
Uno
4 OctLast night, after dinner, Kris and I played Uno with the girls. Rebeccah wasn’t feeling well, so she didn’t join in. Uno is a great game for adults to play with kids. Anyone can win, because there is a significant randomness factor to the game. As a result, the adults can play to win without fear of hurting the kids. It had been a great many years since the last time I played, and I kept getting confused on the rules. Once I did finally get them straight in my head, though, I went on to win the hand we played. We only played one hand, and yet had over 45 minutes of fun. I highly recommend this game to any grandparents looking to have fun with the grandkids.
An Aging Trans Woman 